Lately all I've been doing is watching Grey's Anatomy during the day and reading the 50 Shades trilogy during the night
My sister asks me to go out with her and her friends but I don't feel like it
I mean, they're all 13 or less and I would feel out-of-place and besides what they do is talk and I sure don't feel like talking Spanish these days
Of course my parents start to complain and they've told me that what I'm doing lately is a waste of my time
My mother told me I should iron some clothes if I feel like stop being useless
And my stepfather told me to clean the house or go for a walk
I just don't feel like doing any of these things
I feel like crying would help me get rid of this awful feeling I carry inside for a while now but I know it won't change a thing
I would better if my parents told me to go to Portugal to be with my friends
I know it's impossible and I even feel like a child thinking like this but this summer was being so perfect
I just wanted to be there
So I guess that these "time-wasting days" doing nothing productive are my way of dealing with this situation
My parents may not like it
My sister is starting to call me names and everything just because I don't want to leave the house but I couldn't care less
I just thank heavens for the people I have on my side lately that help me distracting myself with their own business and with their ideas
Oh and on top of everything I can't stop eating
While I was in Portugal I walked a lot from here to there and I ate less because I had stuff to do
Now
I eat every hour
I already notice me belly and my upper-leg getting the way they were before
Maybe going for a walk from time to time would help but I really don't feel like it and stop eating doesn't seem like an option either
I'm so fucked
Grab your MP3 player or whatever you use to listen to music and go for a run, listening to Mars. You'll kill two birds with a single shot. I have been like that before, I still am, tho, but you have to do something besides reading and watching series. Next summer we'll have a good time together and you'll be older, you can always ask your parents to stay around in Portugal for a little while :P
ReplyDeleteThe problem is that I know I should do something besides reading and spending the day in front of the computer watching doctors performing surgeries but I just don't feel like it. It's too hot outside and besides that the guy who lives in the farm next to my house decided that the whole street should smell like pig crap so now it does.
DeleteNext year will be so different. My parents can say whatever they want but I won't spend another summer closed in my house doing nothing productive.
ahahahah! Don't worry about that. :P Enjoy the summer as much as you can!
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